I NEED Him!

Nothing I do apart from Christ is worth anything real.  I may glorify myself in some small way.  I may please my self in some small way.  But the only things that are going to make any eternal difference are the works that I am allowing Christ to do through me.

Now, that almost sounds arrogant saying that I "allow" God to work through me.  But think about the character of God.  Think about the love of God.  Think about how He made us.  He created us with a free will.  He will not work through us unless we are willing vessels.  Now, He WILL get glory out of us no matter what.  You may make a great example of how NOT to do life for the generations to come.  He will use all things for His glory.  But don't we want to be on the receiving end of blessings that will come from that glory?

I am in a season of BEGGING God for His presence.  I don't WANT to do this without Him.  CAN I do this without Him?  Well, it will be stressful, painful, fake, and terribly flawed, but yes I could do some ministry work without Him.  We have pastors all over the country attempting this very thing right now.  But do I WANT to do it without Him?  Not in the least bit.  Without Him there are no lasting fruits.  Without Him there is no over flow of blessings and power.  Without Him this job will eat and eat at my very being until I am a hollow shell of a man that has been ravaged by the storms that I would have been shielded had I had God protecting me.

Lord, I NEED you.  I need you to anoint the ministry I am in.  Without you this doesn't even matter.  I never want to do ministry without you.